Communing with A Stranger

The trinity is a reality I fail to comprehend. People have made an effort to explain it to me. I have read various scriptures dealing with the subject. I know it is the gospel truth, but I don't profess to be a scholar on the matter.

Because I do not fully comprehend the concept, it is hard to dialogue with God. Should I approach Him as Father, Jesus, or Holy Spirit? Does my circumstances dictate how I should address Him?

Normally, when I pray for needs I often address God as Father. When I need to share my heart or repent I address Him as Jesus. If I need direction, power, comfort, or clarity I address Him as Holy Spirit.

Beyond this, I struggle to balance my devotion to each person.

Jesus, is by far, my closest companion. Jesus and I have the best relationship when compared to the other two.

The Father is a close second. There are issues that stifle my relationship with Him. I blame Him for delaying the coming of Christ. I struggle with why He sent His son to die such a brutal death.I have trouble communing with Him, but I trust Him and ask Him for His will.

The Holy Spirit and I are working on our relationship because honestly it is not intimate. I have felt compelled to strengthen my love for Him. Church's have various concepts about what the Holy Spirit does and does not do. I don't wish to drown myself in theology. I simply want to commune with the Spirit. I want to know Him as a person, and not as an ethereal being.

I don't think understanding the theology of the trinity will truly aid me in my endeavor to know God. It might help me in some form; however, communion with God is the better teacher.