Overwhelmed

Tell me, you whom I love,
where you graze your flock
and where you rest your sheep at midday.
Why should I be like a veiled woman
beside the flocks of your friends?

If you do not know, most beautiful of women,
follow the tracks of the sheep
and graze your young goats
by the tents of the shepherds.


Tonight I attended Living Waters, a ministry that takes place on Taylor’s campus. During the service, the young man delivering the message continued to use words like “crazy, “weird,” and “awkward” to describe the Holy Spirit’s actions. I happen to know there are numerous organizations that would find those adjective offensive and inaccurate. However, in my own experience, those descriptors are truthful. God is strange. He calls His people to do the impossible. He also asks His people to act in unconventional ways. 

The ministry team allowed the awkward and the unconventional. It made me nervous and uncomfortable, but it was GLORIOUS! When you give the Spirit free reign, He can move on the hearts of those who need a touch from the Lord. As the night progressed, I did become overwhelmed. I am use to chains. I was not prepared for freedom. I am too accustomed to the organized church service, where most are spectators and restricted to a box.

Unfortunately, while all this miraculous ministry was happening, I guarded my heart. I have faith in God’s goodness. I just don't know how to foster that type of beauty corporately. God was alluring. He was extremely attractive. He reminded me of His commitment to love me, cherish me, and honor me. However, closer to the end of the service, it became too real. All those powerful, marvelous dreams, that seem too glorious to be true, started to materialize through words of faith. I watched Christians coming together in unity, believing for the impossible and the crazy. I think God’s goodness might just give me a heart attack. He is glorious and His church overwhelms me!