Processing Life

I am processing life. I am processing my sister's passing, my calling, college plans, writing ventures, political views, spiritual convictions, and a whole array of life issues. After my sister's passing, I realized that I only have a limited amount of time to accomplish what God has asked of me. God is giving me the opportunity to pursue what I love. However, He is also giving me a deep conviction to pursue my passions for a purpose.

I have come to the conclusion that I am changing my major. I am not changing my career. I know God has called me to be a writer. However, I seek more definition and specialization.

Recently, social justice has stirred in my bones. I've noticed that my writing is often motivated by an inward rally call. I never write a story simply to entertain or give heart-warming narration. I write to change minds, stir people to action, or expose social injustice.

Now that I have taken writing classes that have improved my sentence structure and prepared me to publish, I think I can move to another major. I am constructing a three year plan that will give me a degree, which focuses on social action within the scope of theatre and writing.

I have an ideal future goal, which I won't explain here. Generally, I want to write and produce plays that deal with real life issues and challenge apathetic crowds. I also want to analyze literature and write political essays. The issues that are currently burning on my heart are:

1. Overturning Roe v Wade
2. Israel's right to exist
3. Israeli and Palestinian conflict
4. Mental Illness Stigmas
5. Among many others...

We all have callings. We have moments when we step away from those callings. Maybe we need rest, sometimes we rebel, we lack direction or focus, and sometimes we are called in another direction. However, God keeps the flame burning underneath our skin. When He fans the flame, it feels glorious. Maybe, you have something that is your signature call. Have you been walking in it? Maybe you should pray and ask God if you have abandoned that call because of fear or circumstances. I would suggest you process life and find your heartbeat again.