Today was a good day. I had a good walk. The park was full of visitors for the weekend. Knowing full well that Texas is being plummeted with hurricane Harvey, I can appreciate the beauty of my Indiana summer and fall.
My sanity is coming back as well. I still wrestle with strange thoughts and my own fears, but my mind is clearing. I am shocked that classes begin in a few days. My heart is hurting. It isn't that I don't trust God. I do. I know He is drawing me closer to Him. He is removing distraction and worry from my life. He is giving me time to seek Him. However, I also know I will miss my Taylor friends and miss the friendships I could have nurtured. I plan to visit the campus. I have plans to watch the plays. I am just overwhelmed by the past few months. So much has happened. I will be seeing a psychiatrist in a couple days. I always enter the NEC with hope and a plan, but I my requests and plans are often ignored. It is so hard to submit to people who don't know me and who don't share my faith.
My sanity is coming back as well. I still wrestle with strange thoughts and my own fears, but my mind is clearing. I am shocked that classes begin in a few days. My heart is hurting. It isn't that I don't trust God. I do. I know He is drawing me closer to Him. He is removing distraction and worry from my life. He is giving me time to seek Him. However, I also know I will miss my Taylor friends and miss the friendships I could have nurtured. I plan to visit the campus. I have plans to watch the plays. I am just overwhelmed by the past few months. So much has happened. I will be seeing a psychiatrist in a couple days. I always enter the NEC with hope and a plan, but I my requests and plans are often ignored. It is so hard to submit to people who don't know me and who don't share my faith.
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