I was in an original play written by William Gebby about a man named Calvin Fairbank. This man was imprisoned in a Kentucky prison because he saved two slaves from slavery.
I found myself deeply moved as I played Dana, the wife of Calvin. Most people would idolize Calvin for his suffering in the prison. However, Dana must have suffered as well. Women are extremely emotional, so the pain she felt as he suffered in the jail must have been extremely excruciating.
I relate to that pain. As I consider the sufferings of Christ, I fall into a deep emotional pain. I think that is why, I haven't read much scripture and I haven't attended church. I am still in love with Christ, but it hurts too much to hear the Gospel. It is too real now. It hurts too much to bare. Communion is painful.
Therefore, I am finding my relationship with the Holy Spirit to be very comforting. It isn't as difficult. There is no distance. I am not held in this endless longing.
He is such a comforter. He makes me laugh.
I found myself deeply moved as I played Dana, the wife of Calvin. Most people would idolize Calvin for his suffering in the prison. However, Dana must have suffered as well. Women are extremely emotional, so the pain she felt as he suffered in the jail must have been extremely excruciating.
I relate to that pain. As I consider the sufferings of Christ, I fall into a deep emotional pain. I think that is why, I haven't read much scripture and I haven't attended church. I am still in love with Christ, but it hurts too much to hear the Gospel. It is too real now. It hurts too much to bare. Communion is painful.
Therefore, I am finding my relationship with the Holy Spirit to be very comforting. It isn't as difficult. There is no distance. I am not held in this endless longing.
He is such a comforter. He makes me laugh.
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