I love the Father, Jesus, and Holy Spirit. Even when I feel hurt by Him. Even when I don't understand His ways. Even when I lose what I think I deserve. Even when I don't agree with Him. Even when His people disappoint me. Even when He scares me. I love Him.
In the midst of this passionate love relationship, there are aspects of His character that are a mystery to me. It may shock you, but there are aspects of His nature that don't appeal to me. I sin when I don't fully yield to His character. I must yield to Him. I must bow to Him. I am not in a position to change the Lord of the Universe. My expectations for Him to change are foolish and faulty.
I want to understand His ways. I want our relationship to be without friction. I want to be a pleasing sacrifice. Search me and know me God! See if there be any wicked way in me! Lead me in the way everlasting!
As I peer into my resistance, I realize God is involved. I can tell Him about my skepticism, and He won't be apathetic or distant. He invites me closer and then sanctifies me. He will reveal the glory of who He is!!!! I want to become like Him, therefore my selfish, misguided ideals will die on a cross. I must remind myself to passionately love God, especially when my flesh wants to hate Him. God is good, even when He appears to be bad. God loved us when we were His enemies. We must love Him when He is killing our pleasure seeking flesh.
In the midst of this passionate love relationship, there are aspects of His character that are a mystery to me. It may shock you, but there are aspects of His nature that don't appeal to me. I sin when I don't fully yield to His character. I must yield to Him. I must bow to Him. I am not in a position to change the Lord of the Universe. My expectations for Him to change are foolish and faulty.
I want to understand His ways. I want our relationship to be without friction. I want to be a pleasing sacrifice. Search me and know me God! See if there be any wicked way in me! Lead me in the way everlasting!
As I peer into my resistance, I realize God is involved. I can tell Him about my skepticism, and He won't be apathetic or distant. He invites me closer and then sanctifies me. He will reveal the glory of who He is!!!! I want to become like Him, therefore my selfish, misguided ideals will die on a cross. I must remind myself to passionately love God, especially when my flesh wants to hate Him. God is good, even when He appears to be bad. God loved us when we were His enemies. We must love Him when He is killing our pleasure seeking flesh.
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