Humility Must Be Center Stage

After I wrote this post, I HAD to create this mv! I didn't create it to portray the movie, I used it to portray what God has done in my life and what He wants to do in your life.



I had a conversation with the director of Taylor Theater. It was a “holy and sacred moment” (her exact words). I was struggling with some image issues. I am not only referring to physical appearance. Women struggle with self image in other areas.
I have told many about my prior theater disappointment. For a period of 10 years, I stopped pursuing acting. After I wasn’t accepted into a college theater program, I ran away full of bitterness. I decided I wasn’t talented or pretty enough to compete in a world of image and connections. I felt God had given me a desire only to disappoint me.
However, my love for the stage never left me. When I arrived at Upland, the stage was given to me once again! It was a massive gift from my Creator. I think He waited 10 years so that I would appreciate it more. He knew I wasn’t mature enough or ready 10 years ago.
I had a specific determination when I was in high school show choir and theater: be a servant first and a star later. I would make sure to help back stage. I would give the solo to someone else. I would remain in the back instead of rushing for the front and center position. I want to serve and bless others, not seek the spotlight. Acting is not only about performing. Acting is not only about opening night. Acting is about working as a team and serving those around you. I must place my fellow actors and the audience above my own ambition and my tendency to crave attention.
But, more than anything I must glorify God and follow His leading, whatever that looks like! Even if I am humiliated, don't receive the part I want, or if I am rejected over and over.
I want this testimony to encourage you to be patience and live in the moment. Don’t look at your failures as something that cripples you. Don’t think of your missed opportunities as something you may never regain. God uses all these valleys and mountains to shape the vessel He created! His ways are higher than ours, and our first pursuit must be humility and His glory.