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Sunday, March 09, 2008


I am in a struggle because my life doesn't look the same. Transition and change are so difficult for me. The 6am IHOP set is no longer happening. I feel like I am to blame because I wasn't faithful enough. I also feel disposable and that hurts my pride. My relationship with God has been rocky. He has been distant and undecipherable. I love Him, but I don't know Him. There have been multiple times where my hope has been stirred only to be crushed. I hate being tossed to and fro. I know God is working in my life and that the end result will be miraculous. Still, the road there is filled with struggle and disappointment. God please be near.

1 comment:

Joshy said...

you know what is interesting is that each member of the 6AM team has said the same thing! including me! It is not anyone's fault it is just shift to a new season. Let's embrace it and move on. We are still doing 6AMs on Thursdays, but Thursday only.