I'm a writer with or without you

There is a struggle that I must confess. I don't think I am a good writer. I can write amazing papers, but I don't have the audacity or motivation to get them published. It isn't my gift. I am praying that an agent will be able to under-gird me, so I can write with more freedom. When you are in college, you are inundated with so much information and techniques. It is hard keeping them all straight when you are as slow and distracted as I am. I often feel unattractive as a writer because I don't write incessantly or for a specific audience. I write my convictions. I write my own creativty. I am terrified that I will have some very powerful, life-changing pieces that never make it to print.