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If you were to ask me, "what is it like to take medications for mental illness?" I would reply, "scary". Giving your thoughts and emotions to someone who you barely know is scary. Trusting them to give you the correct dose is scary. It is scary because you fear losing yourself. You fear there will be irreparable damage. I don't know how I would have made it through this storm without Christ. My grasp on reality is so faint right now. I know where I am and I know what I am doing, but the chemicals in my brain are growing and changing at a pace that is hard to keep up with. I run to my place of safety, and beg God not to forsake me. I love Him MORE than I can express.