I had a dream where I was serving a theater friend food. I prepared fish and corn. I decided to mix the fish and corn together. When I served the food to my friend, I regretted mixing the fish and corn together. I apologized to my friend. I decided to take the dish from my friend and attempted to separate the corn from the fish and then reserve it. I walked toward the kitchen with the bowl, and suddenly I was in a deep ocean. I lost my grip on the bowl of fish and corn. It sunk to the bottom of the deep ocean.
This dream is the perfect descriptor of my financial quandaries. In the dream, I believe fish is representative of God's provision while corn is representative of famine and loss. (Currently, corn crops are suffering in Indiana.)
This dream is a picture of my current financial stress. Whenever I am financially stressed, my soul is in disorder.
I simply can’t understand why money is important. I have a deep hatred of it. Money determines my position and influence in God’s kingdom. I am forced to serve money even when I want to serve the Lord. I am a slave to the dollar when I want to be a slave to righteousness. Currently, I am unable to attend Taylor because of finances.
I am willing to admit that my financial state may be connected to my own disobedience or laziness. Somewhere in the past, I may have made wrong choices or done something to cut off the supply of funds. However, I don’t understand why the Lord uses money to teach me obedience. Isn't money His enemy? The golden calf? (Matthew 6:24)
The dream of the corn and fish continues to baffle me. In famine or in wealth, I long to serve Thee. Finances can’t buy the love of God. I want to be free of the burden of money. It hurts so many.
Set me as a seal upon your heart,
as a seal upon your arm,
for love is strong as death,
jealousy is fierce as the grave.
Its flashes are flashes of fire,
the very flame of the Lord.
Many waters cannot quench love,
neither can floods drown it.
If a man offered for love
all the wealth of his house,
he would be utterly despised.
I simply can’t understand why money is important. I have a deep hatred of it. Money determines my position and influence in God’s kingdom. I am forced to serve money even when I want to serve the Lord. I am a slave to the dollar when I want to be a slave to righteousness. Currently, I am unable to attend Taylor because of finances.
I am willing to admit that my financial state may be connected to my own disobedience or laziness. Somewhere in the past, I may have made wrong choices or done something to cut off the supply of funds. However, I don’t understand why the Lord uses money to teach me obedience. Isn't money His enemy? The golden calf? (Matthew 6:24)
The dream of the corn and fish continues to baffle me. In famine or in wealth, I long to serve Thee. Finances can’t buy the love of God. I want to be free of the burden of money. It hurts so many.
Set me as a seal upon your heart,
as a seal upon your arm,
for love is strong as death,
jealousy is fierce as the grave.
Its flashes are flashes of fire,
the very flame of the Lord.
Many waters cannot quench love,
neither can floods drown it.
If a man offered for love
all the wealth of his house,
he would be utterly despised.
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