Deal With It

When you have been deeply hurt by an experience in your life God does not allow you to avoid the issue. Sorry, all you Christians who have been stuffing your emotions and hiding your pain. We can fool people rather easily. But, God knows our inner most being. He created us. He knows us and it is IMPOSSIBLE to fool Him. I have a wound in my soul that has never fully healed. When I am not conscientiously thinking about this pain it is still influencing all my relationships. At least once a year God brings this issue to the table and asks me to be honest and deal with it. I often fight Him. I try to tell Him I have moved passed the issue. I try to remind Him of my deep love for Him. I say, "God I love You, You have given me eternity with You, this issue is not that big of a deal!" Even though I say these things God is vigilant. No, daughter we need to discuss this. We need to heal. We need to find freedom! I have tried numerous times to set up emotional barricades. When I am hurting I will try to force myself to be joyful. This rarely works. God keeps repeating this phrase, "Tamara I am the shoulder you can cry on." When I am honest with myself I find that God is right all along. Dealing with pain is more effective than avoiding it. I am going to try to be diligent in addressing those issues that have stolen my joy and freedom. Healing is a process and only works when it finds a humble, broken vessel.